Wednesday, 23 May 2018

"You know how? We just decided to.”

When I was doing my PhD, I felt it was the hardest thing that I have ever done. It was stressful.

When I was preparing and taking HOKLAS accreditation assessment, I felt that was even more challenging. The accreditation body was not obligated to grant me a pass. It was stressful.

When I am coping with several different new roles at the same period of time - from research to internship to volunteers in new positions that I have never imagined for myself, that is even more unsettling. It is stressful.


The problem at present is always the most difficult problem in the world, to be specific, in my world.
When looking back, that previous “hardest” problem has turned out to be nothing at all.

Some say, this all shall pass.
But to me, that just seems to emphasize how hard is the current problem.
"Just try" - this is my philosophy.

I still have no idea, but I’ve taken steps to go forward.
I might be wrong.
Because I’m no perfect, I could go wrong.
So what? Figure it out, somehow.
It is not about positive thinking, it's just the only choice.

"I'm not those guys." "I'm betting all my money on you're wrong."
...
"You know how? We just decided to.”
Taken from the script of the “The Newsroom” (S1Ep1).
https://www.springfieldspringfield.co.uk/view_episode_scripts.php?tv-show=the-newsroom&episode=s01e01



Tuesday, 22 May 2018

Self Discovery

Finally got some time for silence. 


With new and unexpected challenges each day, I discovered the other side of myself that I would have never thought about.

1.) I did a science talk in a pub. 
2.) I did a performance and led a game activity with people. 
3.) I did cantoring in mass. 
4.) I am going to live with a dog and I am not frightened but find it cute. (GREAT surprise friends!)


With heaps of thing every day, I felt guilty for not having time for contemplation as I used to be. 
Then, I suddenly saw this amazing sunset and the calming lake.


The peace fils up my heart with consolation.
He is really the God of surprises.